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So I've been trying to figure out why I keep coming back to this site and why I keep this account active. I've been here for over 5 years and made a couple of good friends who helped me discover myself and my sexuality. Through the years I have all but lost contact with them, most of them have just kind of dissapeered, or they have kids or they are married I still talk to 1 person I met on here and I don't get to talk to them as much as id like but we really are not the same people we met 5 years ago, we have both changed and grown up and there's really nothing I can do to change that. She was the first person who taught me how to explore myself and how to embrace sexuality as a whole instead of just having sex, she helped me through everything in highschool and we still talk maybe once every couple of months. I think the point I was trying to make was the reason I still come here is to try and remember that I don't need a ton of friends or to social I just need one good friend to help me through the good and the bad, and when I left home I left my friends and I think I'm just now starting to realize how much it hurt to leave it all behind.